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 the truth is, i can say is that im a messy slob that loves an occasional beer, i hate my father and anyone that acts like a jerk and disregaurds other peoples feelings, i dont tolerate people who are selfish and have recently learned that at the end of the day you have to be able to say that at the end of that day you have to be able to tell your self that you did everything you could have possibly dont within reason. i know what i love and i know what i hate. i have a heart of stone that only has one key. and im fine with that

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 soooo true :/

Anonymous asked: Sometimes i wonder if you always tell me the truth.
I wonder if you know that i wouldnt be upset, or angry, if you told me things that i might not like. Its never a big deal to me. I just want to know the truth. Because i would never lie to you.

i dont lie to you. ever. however i sheild you from things that i am ashamed of. i dont speak of them not because im afraid how youll react but rather because i dont like the feeling of haveinf to admit it.

yay for ludo concert

Anonymous asked: Do you remember when you used to freak out that i wouldnt answer you sometimes? I feel the same. I want to freak out, to try to get at you any way i can, because i feel like ive said the wrong thing. And the other half of my heart is just still sad, because i dont like this. I dont like feeling like my part of your heart is the affair. That we're the wrong part and you actually do love her. I dont know, im paranoid all the time. And im scared. And i just want to be with you all the time, because already youve been with her more than we were together. I just long to be the important. I love you.

something that you should know is that i have a consience, i sleep out on the couch most of the time. sleeping near her makes me feel so dirty and repulsive and guilty.  i cant look at myself in the mirror sometimes, im soo ashamed.  i really dont have any feelings for. the  problem is that her uncle owns the apt and they could kick me out, i have now where to go. i wish i could go straight into your arms and someday ill try to. i just hope you axcept me when the time comes. :/

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